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But if your heart's not in it, for real.
Please dont try to fake what you dont feel.
If love's already gone,
Its not fair to lead me on.
Cause, i would give the whole world, for you.
Anything you'd ask of me, i'll do.
But i wont ask you to say,
I'd rather walk away.
If your heart's not in it.
yes.
i admit.
rae is slow.
rae and co are slow.
frowns to berr*
pukes!
the truth is out.
both me and my sister failed at analysing this time!
first failure of us two okay.
oh man.
the truth like totally disgusts us?
yes.i didnt know she was that desperate.
and have such good sucking skills!
woooah.
even i dont know how to suck okay.
not to mention such a guai looking person like her.
clapss*
ms wong like became nicer!
i think la.
cos i didnt complete my amaths homework.
she just say hand in.
to me damn nice!woohs.
ms wong had dialogue session wif the class com today.
hoho.i was observing her la!
great minds think alike.
so was jieying.
she really looks like a pufferfish?
her cheeks are so puffed up.
and her shirt like qt low-cut.
shrugs.
please la.
i dont want to see.:X
gonnie roh is like so cute!
no teaching during physics today.
he told us abt his coaster rides in australia.
and there's one ride where he blackouted halfway.
so funny!
he's just so cute la.
X)
and he's like the most understanding teacher ever!
he knows its kinda impossible to complete the holiday hw he gave us.
which is like super true.
so we just need to put in effort la.
dont need to complete.
lalala.
i have not done my baomihua.
yucks.
xinyi is such a blur sotong.
the knightbus from harrypotter.
she presented it as magic schoolbus during english lesson.
roars.
me and gauri were laughing like crazy.
studied wif qian after school!
yes.
world war I started.
she represents germany.
i'm the whole of europe.
we had a water fight.
plus all the damn gangster actions.
like push here push there.
hoho.
but at last europe won.
lalas.
although she claims that germany won la.X(
but i'm glad she like at least did her hw while wif me.
cos i'm like a distraction for her.
:(((
sad right.
but today she did her work!
grins.
thats so great!
yes.
i think this is like the last month that we can play until so siao.
after this month.
i cant even dream on abt seeing her after school.
sighs.
Os just sucks.
hmms.the song's playing again!
baby i love you.and i'll never let you go.
yes.you'll never be replaced.
its the first day of school!
whee.
today's exciting.
cos i'm back wif my gauri!
lalala.
i miss her okay.
i really cant survive my school days without her.
we just have the same thinking abt things and stuff.
she's so funny la!
i love gossiping wif her.
lalala.
my spongebob partner is back wif me.
yes yes.changed of teachers.
we knew our form teacher was ms wong mei ching like qt some time ago.
so it didnt come as a shock.
woohs.
i have to see her at the start of each school days.
rocks totally la.
i wonder if our class will start to dislike her more.
or start liking her.
shrugs*
all i know is.
she teach amaths like my results damn good la.
wow.all thanks to her i'll been struggling.
let see.
today is the 29th.
tomorrow is the 30th.
then its the first.
wooohs.
i like the first of every month.
nono.
i shall use the word love.
yes.the first day of each month is just like a brand new start.
?? to me it is.
time flies.
its like july next month already.
hoho.and it'll be 10 full months.
ya yes.
lalala X)
it just makes me smile to think abt it.
went for service yesterday.
almost everyone couldnt recognise me!
hoho.
they said i've changed like super alot la.
X) did i?
hannah's face was damn funny when yiling told her it was me.
yes.they still remembers my favourite prayer request.
i want to grow taller.
baby i love you and i'll never let you go.
yes the song's still playing.
i'm addicted la.
its a darn sweet song.
the lyrics are just so meaningful.
it makes me think abt everything as the song plays.
yes.all the beautiful memories.
i treasure.X)
sighs.
i'm so disappointed that the pictures that i saved until the favourites file in my cam cant be uploaded.
so sad ks.
the pictures are just so great!
hmms.i shant be affected too much.
hoho.yesterday was great la.
X)))
cant help but smile.
lalalalalalas.
watched the day after tomorrow.
yes.it was great.
the graphics were damn real.
woohs.i certainly dont want tomorrow to be like that.
:|
walked ard town.
and went boat quay!
hehe.
we went to fullerton hotel.
is that the spelling?
just sat on the grand sofa and rested.
took pictures!
sadly.i cannot upload them.
cos they're in the favourites file.
sighs.:(
hmms.
evening headed for clark quay!
naa.we didnt go there for clubbing.
too early la.
we sat on the steps.
yes.just enjoying the night scene.
hoho.nice.
the wind blowing against our faces.
the waters splashing.
the motor tourist boats.
the wild friday night.
yes.its all in my mind.
just the both of us.
everthing's so great.
beautiful.
sweet.
if only time could freeze.
forever?yes.
:)))
we both made wishes!
yes.the first star that you see in the sky.
make a wish.
perhaps it'll come true.
we made the same wish!
so sweet.
shhhh.the wish is our secret.
both of us were tired after that.
headed back home.:)
yes.i was dead tired.
but i still miss her loads loads loads.
she'll be busy after the school reopens.
sighs.maybe it will be the last quality time we're spending together.
bleahs.
i dont want.:(
fine!we shall play like crazy after her Os.
hmpf.that's better la.
look on the bright side.X)
guess what.
the song's still playing.
baby i love you and i'll never let you go.
all the love we made can never be erased.
my house's so scary nowadays!
grrr.
i hope its not haunted.
grrr.
i just turned behind.
i thought someone was looking at me.
arghhhhhh!
hoho.
all thanks to my best senior.
the song's stuck in my head now.
i'm so addicted to it.
baby i love you.and i'll never let you go.
its so nice!
when she showed me the lyrics.
yes.my heart melted.
it was damn meaningful.
arghh.its cao nice.
yes.i'm off today.
lalala.not going work.
X) i'm going out.
grins.
i cant wait.
i'm so glad everything's alright again.
lalala.i love it when its like that.
i feel so on cloud nine.
yes.the song's playing again.
baby i love you and i'll never let you go.
is mingming coming back today?
hmms.its today or tomorrow.
oh yay.
i hope its today okay.
i miss her.
hehe.
i bet she had fun in thailand.
training.
raahh.
thats the funny part.
and tata's coming back!
oh yay.
i want to see if he grew more handsome.
hmms.
he's forever handsome in my heart la.
i love him much more than i love anyone.
hoho.what crap am i saying.
but.i really truly love tata okay!
he's the hero in my heart.
and will forever be.
?
shrugs*
yes yes.
the song's playing on and on.
and i'm so addicted.
X)))
arghh.
another good thing happened.
my maid found my ring.
its finally found!
woohs.yes.
what a blessing.
lalala.
6202303+
i'm sorry.
a thousand million times.
i didnt want things to turn out this way.
fuck.
i thought everything was alright.
i thought it was okay.
yes yes.
like what she said.
thought thought thought.
they are ALL wrong.
yes.its all my fault.
i'm sorry.
what can i do to atone for my wrong doings.
please,
please forgive me.
i know my mistake.
and i promised.
there will be no more next time.
i will never want to let you go.
i dont want any of yr blessings.
all i want is you.
you you and only you.
you know how lost my life will be.
without you.
you came into my life.
accidentally.
and created a new life for me.
you brought me warmth.
happiness and joy.
i dont want you to leave me.
nor do i want to leave you.
till death do us part+
yes.
i'm up.gotta go school for some iT course later.
heh.
today is the second day.
i didnt go for yesterday!
hoho.
yes.i love yesterday.
most importantly i saw my baby.
lalalalas.
my sister's much happier now.
i'm so glad to see her like that.
yes.i feel so happy for her too.
cos sometimes i'll be like so happy but she'll still be sad.
makes me worried.
yesterday was like damn fun!
yes.i met up wif jason for dinner.
he's one lame guy!
yes.and i'm so glad i told him i'm attached.
he didnt react.
he accepted me for who i am.
yes.i thought he'll like flood me wif verses from the Bible to tell me to turn straight.
naa.he didnt do that.
and i'm so glad.
he's so lame la!
haha.i had fun wif him.
just talk and talk.
but i dont like walking beside him.
he's like 30cm taller than me!
=181.yes
thanks for seeing me to vch dude!
:)))
yes.and i saw my sister.
with a dangling earrings!
hoho.
she look cao gu niang.
ganma's sister is like so pretty!
her whole family is damn funny la.
the concert like keep commenting and commenting.
we were the only ones laughing away.
:| so noisy.
after concert!
lalala.
i met my baby.
yes.i'm so proud of her.
she looks so good on stage.
i dont know.
everytime i see her playing the saxophone.
yes.my heart will melt.
hoho.
yes.she looks so good.
lalalalalalala~
how much i miss her okay!
3 days since i've last saw her.
i can die.
X(
she's cao cute.
lalala~
the concert was great!
we cheered for manel.
yes.my jay.
manel jiayou!
hoho.her reaction was like damn funny!
i miss mingming.
she could have been here.
where my good old brother?
yes.i hope she's enjoying herself.
training in thailand!
roars-
thats so funny.
when i see you in my eyes.
i know you're the love of my life.
rae__@hotmail.com
yes.this is my new email.
the old one got hacked i think.
yes.
i went through hell again.
last night.and this morning.
pillows and my small little bolster.
+my baobei xiaohei.
so stained wif tears.
just kept crying non stop.
and sadly no one was there for me.
mingming was on holiday.
i thought my sister wasnt back.
so many pple were gone.
and i had to deal wif all the pain.
myself.
but good thing my sister came to my rescue.
yes.
she's just a great comforter.
always there to hear me cry.
i'm sorry for making you worried.:(
i'm sorry i'm not a perfect person.
there's many things i wish i didnt do.
damn it.
i just dont know why my email has a wrong password!
what the hell.
grrrr.
spoils my whole mood for the day.
and yes.
that woman there.
yucks.she sounds totally desperate.
who is she to fight wif me.
like hello?
we dont even know abt yr existence.
and nothing can come in between us.
you sound like a total desperate bitch to me.
yes you.
please get a life and spice it up.
fighting wif me aint doing you any good.
you're like courting yr own death?
yes.
and since you're younger.
i've got advice for you.
scram.
i hate it when pple gets crazy over her okay.
my blood will boil.
yes it will.
say i'm overprotective.say i'm mad.
yes thats me.
grrrrrrrrr.
bought my digi cam!
700+ bucks.
daddy sponsered me 300bucks.
the rest i must pay myself.
boos.
what luck!
and my sister has a new discman okay.
thats totally unfair.
saw a dead dog ready for cremation.
yes.i could feel the sadness ard.
the owners were like crying like crazy.
feel so down.so hurt.
i dont like things to die.
finally visited my granddad yesterday!
other days my parents didnt want to bring me along.
but yesterday my mum told me to go visit him.
yes.he still looks healthy.
not that sick, pale looking.
but it hurts me to see him like that.
i was putting on a smile when i greeted him.
yes.i waved to him.
and he waved back.
how i wish things will just be like that.
but deep down in my heart.
i know he's really sick.
and when it was time for me to leave the hospital.
i waved back at him.
by the bedside.
and before stepping out of the ward.
he waved back.twice.
yes.it touched my heart.
and right now when i'm blogging.
i really feel like crying.
cry everything out.
from his sickness.to us.
everything.
i feel so bottled up.
oh Lord, please take away his pain.
i want to go see him again.
i want him to buy treats for us.
i want the healthy him.
i want i want i want.
but can i have it.
i need my mingming.
i need qian.where is she?
she seems to be ignoring me again.
my heart hurts.
this pain that i feel inside.
i really dont know how to get it out frm me.
just writing in my blog.
i already feel like crying.
there are already tears in my eyes.
i dont think i can say it out.
no words can describe how i feel.
i love him.
and i know he loves us too.
i dont want things to change.
i just want to see everyone living well.
in the pink of health.
thats a wish.
my wish.
i made,for the whole world.
please make this wish come true.
and please.please please.
make my granddad well again.
oh man.
i was looking through friendster.
yes.i came across a picture of 2 guys kissing.
oh pukes.
i've seen many pictures of girls kissing.
but guys!
oh man.
bangs head against the wall.
its like two guys la.
pure gays.
oh man.
and one more thing that makes me shiver!
her.
yucks.
you should go see her blog.
forever abt she and her deardear.
when she's like !!! like that.
seriously.
you guys should be disgusted by such a faker.
hmpf.i shall publicise her diary here.
perfectmatch.diaryland.com
and yes.its marie's.:)))
there.my xiaohei.
she looks cleaner right?
sighss.
yes.i'm feeling so empty.
cant help but keep sighing.
dont really have the mood to blog.
so many rubbish running through my mind?
grrrrr.
i hate it.
mingming's heading for thailand.today.
take care hoh.
i'll miss you.
sighhhhhsss.
hehe.
i met my xiao doudian again.
3 days in a row!
whee.
rocks can.
X)))
she's getting cuter and cuter day but day.
and yes.
she's only mine.
mine and mine alone.
you dont ever think abt tsking her away from me okay.
especially all those weird flirts.
who are eyeing on her.
hoho.not even a chance.
she's mine already.
yes.i love her to bits.:)
and pieces!
xiao hei no longer smells so nice.
she smells so clean now!
grrr.
anyway.
xiaohei is my baobei.
heh.yes.my toy bear.
its not some pet la suchen.:D
xiaohei is such a cute name okay.
yes.she was named after my baby.
thats why i love xiaohei so much.
hehe.
my mingming is going thailand tomorrow?
and so is my jenn jenn!
i'll miss them.
sighhss.
what if i need mingming.
how how?:(((((
yes yes.
i'm jumping happy!
my xiaodoudian!!!
arghh.
i met my xiaodoudian again.
i think she's getting cuter and cuter day by day.
:)))
oops.
die la die la.
i smell trouble coming.
why suddenly like that.
grrrr.
yes.
my xiaohei is dry.
she looks so clean.
and smell so clean too.
boohoohoos.
and i love berr.
she's like always to the rescue.
oh mans.
thanksss.
my best senior always.
X)))
i saw my xiao doudian yesterday!
met up wif her after work.
lalala.
how happpy i was okay.
but sadly.
she wasnt feeling too well last night.
sighs.
i was dead worried.
i hope she's alright again.
i love you my xiao doudian.
you matter the most alrights.
and finally.
my mom forced me.
to wash xiaohei.
sighs.
she claims its stinking up my room.
i dont think so!
i think the smell is getting nicer and nicer each day okay.
boos.
i feel so sad.
seeing my baobei being put into a pail.
wif all the water and detergent.
i really really felt like crying okay!
then my mom showed me the dirty water.
heh.blushes*
it was real dirty.
sighs.
what if xiaohei cannot dry by tonight?
cannot cannot.
i wont be able to sleep.
:(((
i love zilan to bits.
i almost cried watching sunwukong yesterday okay!
like her love for wukong is so great that it suppresses death.
yes.
i love you all the same.
am willing to give up my life for you too.
i wanna see my xiao doudian again!
sighhss.
diandou-
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天空很大却看不清楚 好孤独
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everything's darn blur now.
i dont know what to do.
tian hei hei still sounds so nice.
the lyrics are still that meaningful.
i see a clearer picture of the lyrics now.
everything's so bad.
i'm afraid i aint gonna live through this.
i'm afraid i aint smiling like before anymore.
i'm afriad it has ended.
i got some last words i really wanna say.
sister:
yes.my sister.
i love you.
through all the times we shared our problems.
and all the joy and laughter.
gossips and even taking of pictures together.
i certainly did enjoy them.
you're the best sister i will ever have.
thanks loads.
brother:
mingming i'm okay.
hee hee hee.
hear that?
yes yes i'm okay.
i'm sorry for always making you worried abt me.
but thank you for being there when i need someone to scream or to cry.
or to even crap wif me.
you're a great listening ear.
i love you.
and i want to hug you tight again.
ganma:
i doubt you'll ever see this.
but i remember you.
grow up to become an army officer will you.
i'm sorry for all the mean times.
but i still love you.
i love yr stomach to lie on.
and yr heat when i hug you.
thanks loads.
jenn:
jenn.we were always on the same boat.
but i dont want you to be on the same boat as me now.
i want to see you happy.
i love seeing you happy.
i'm afraid romeo will have to go first.
i dont think i can live through this.
i'll not be there to comfort you anymore.
but please.
please smile will you.
i love you too.
my juliet forever.
qian:
take care girl.
i enjoyed all the times when we played like crazy.
thank you for taking care of me so well.
yes.i love you too.
you:
for all the times we spent together.
i'll remember.
be it sad.happy.angry.
you're going to be.
the best i will ever have.
i believe you're god sent to me.
to bring me such happiness.
i enjoyed every moment i spent wif you.
and yes.
i am willing to sacrifise my life for yours.
and even if you want me to die for you.
i am willing.
say it isnt so.
tell me you're not leaving.
say you've changed yr mind now.
that i am only dreaming.
that this is not good bye.
this is starting over.
say i'm not wide awake.
if you wanna know.
i dont wanna let go.
so say it isnt so.
how meaningful the lyrics are.
spoken everything in my mind that i want to tell you.
i'm sorry i cant stay strong.
but i wanna let you know.
yes.i love you.
yes people.i love everyone of you.
i'm afraid i really wont survive.
i cant hold on any longer.
take care people.
take care.
smile always.
rae-
was out shopping at bugis wif my family yesterday.
today they going to watch the day after tomorrow.
but i'm not going.
cos i wanna stay at home.
and watch my zilan.
oh man.
melts*
zilan damn cute!
tomorrow is the last episode.
must watch must watch!
zilan will melt yr heart la.
she's damn cute.
X)))
and yes.
i got bad news.
i've lost my ring again.
its confirmed.
i searched and searched.
but cannot find.
sighs.
i feel like crying le.
jenn jenn.
i lost me ring.
sulkks.
people.i want it back.
i want my ring back.
it means alot to me okay.
haisss.
today i style my hair nice nice!
look so bung!
dances*
i want to be a bung.
and i shall find a pretty girlfren too.
heh.i dont mean it la.
X)))
but its like darn short.
but i like it.
ooolala.
i dont know why.
i'm happy.
heh.
my superstar-
die la.
die la die la.
do i look bung.
i just cut my hair!
oh gosh.
i'm turning bung.
oh yes i am.
successful not.
hehe.
when the hairdresser was cutting my hair.
i was like.
die la die la.
pple will look at me as a bung.
ssighhs.
towned wif my family.
sighs.
but everything seems so dull.
all but an empty smile.
took pics wif my sister!
hoho.
:)
but life's boring.
sighs.
i going to visit my granddad tomorrow.
yes yes.
everything's fine now.
i'm glad.
thank you for all yr concerns yea.
i've survived.
thanks to nellie.jay.jenn.berr.inez.mingming.
for yr concern.
i'm okay.
:)))
everything's fine?
yea.
so many things happened today.
so many thoughts running through my mind.
so many feelings felt.
shrugs*
i dont know.
i need mingming.
i need my sister.
i need qian.
i need you.
please dont leave me just like that.
come feel for my heart.
too bad you cant feel a thing.
cos my heart had been shattered.
into a million pieces.
and only you can mend it back.
what becomes of a broken heart.
as the tune of the song runs through my mind.
i thought of all the things.
that i've done to bring such hurt to you.
and all those things you've done to bring such hurt to me too.
i can swear i dont flirt.
i'm playful.but i dont flirt.
i can swear that everything said was from the bottom of my heart.
you can feel it dont you.
you told me you can feel me.
this special bond between us.
what's happening then.
my broken's heart crying.
can you hear it?
i didnt believe in soulmates.then.
but now i do.
i believe we're meant for each other.
its all fated.
fate changes everything.
we are fated.
to be soulmates.
the universe is so big.
where can i find another person like you?
you mean the whole world to me.
please dont hate me.
i treasure us.
i never hated you.and would never hate you.
bitch.liar.flirt.
whatever you want to call me.
it hurts.
but i can take this pain.
yes.yes.i can.
you say you hate me. fine.
oh yes yes.
i'm a bitch.
i'm a flirt.
i'm a big fat liar.
you get that.
everything that i said.
was bullshit.
did you get that.
BULLSHIT.
a thousand knives stabbing my heart.
it hurts.oh yea it does.
it has never hurt this badly before.
its fine.
i'm okay.
i never say i hated you.
even if i was fucking angry wif you.
i never once blurt that out.
wow.so indeed you're the one who tell me you hate me first.
i can accept that.
oh yes i can.
i've never been happier when someone told me she hates me.
woow.
i've got nothing to say.
whatever i told you.whatever i said to you.
was all lies.
nothing but a pack of lies.
oh yes.
and of course.i flirt.
i flirt wif every person available.
i'm a big flirt.
i have great flirting skills.
i already admitted it.
are you happy now.
i always thought things would never change.
nobody will ever leave.
i guess i'm wrong again.
this morning.i just knew how serious his condition was.
i gave a thought to my dad's words.
death is scary.
but waiting to die is even scarier.
thats so true.
his so mentally strong.
he always look so healthy and happy.
always buy treats to make us grandchildren happy.
now that he is in hospital
i didnt even go and visit him once.
am i bad.
i'm feeling so guilty now.
i overheard my parents conversation this morning.
i didnt know what to think.
i never had the feeling of a loved one living me.
and i'm afraid.
i'm afriad...
all i can do is to pray now.
thanks sister.
and jay.:)
thank you for yr concern.
i'm okay.
thats my answer for my brother.
if she's wondering.
i'm just abit confused.
i dont wanna think about anything anymore.
so many many things running through my mind.
so.rae is scared.
the world is just a bluff.
everything's fake.
i'm scared.
hug me tight will you.
i need warmth.from this frightening world.
i never thought things will turn out this way.
wait.not turn out this way.
but happened this way.
i'm okay.
i'm alright.
i'm gonna stay strong.
come to think of it.
i'm so naive.
i always get cheated.and bluffed.
and i actually believed it completely.
i believed that everything's alright.
and things are better and better.
what a good relationship we have.
but things start to turn out ugly when the truth surfaces.
when the thing she hid from me for so long finally was out.
woow.
i appreciate that.
as tears stream down from such a naive little girl.
i thought about the world.
this frightening world.
where everything seems to be only a bluff.
i dont wanna face this world.
this painful truth.
but i know you'll always be there for me.
i know you're real.
you're such an exception.
such a dear to me.
ilu*
thank you for being wif me.through all the difficult times.
you are indeed one in a million.
i know you're real.
so real that i can feel it.
this special bond between us.
lasts forever.
till death do us apart.
how much i love you.
and to you.
perhaps this is the end.
the end of everything between us.
maybe this is a blessing in disguise?
yea.you can stop bluffing and putting up a front.
i'll grow up.
and learn not to believe others so easily.
i will.
maybe.one fine day we'll be back to the same old good(?) relationship?
but that time.
i'll make sure everythings real.
i will baby.
i will.
take care.
for this may be my last farewell for you.
through the happy funny times we had.
but the horrible times that happened.
i'll remember.
and all yr concerns and advices.
i really really hope they were from the bottom of yr heart.
even though everything seems such a bluff now.
thank you.
for this.
will make rae even stronger.
stronger to the setbacks in life.
and to get to know the real world better.
and slower get out of my naiveness.
thank you.
as the truth surfaces.
i'm heartbroken.
scared.
why have things come to such an extend.
not that i dont like it now.
but as conpared to last time.
its all seems so different.
why did things suddenly have a change.
from bad to good.
was there a motive in doing all these.
why why why.
why of all people.
me.
tell me why.
:(
i never thought that things turned out that way.
if it did succeed.
i wouldnt be what i am now.
i wouldnt be so happy.
i would be still as lonely.
still as being antied.
i'm scared.
come hug me tight will you.
:(
argh!i found the english version!there was the chinese one.i posted over the blog.but could really see.read this dear.
Life is the process of finding love. Every person will need to find four people in their life.
First person is yourself, Second person is the one you love most, Third person is the one who love you most, And the fourth, is the one you spend the rest of your life with.
In life, firstly you will meet with the one you love most, and learn how love feels. Because you know how love feels, so you can find the person who love you most.
When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved, you will then know what it is you need most. Then you will find the person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.
Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.
The one you love most, doesn't love you. The one who loves you most, is never the one you love most. And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who loves you most. She is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.
No person will purposely have a change of heart. At the point in time when she loves you, she really loves you. But when she doesn't love you anymore, she really doesn't love you anymore. When she loves you, she can't pretend that she doesn't.
Same goes, when she loves you no more, there is no way she can pretend she loves you. When a person doesn't love you and wants to leave you, you must ask yourself if you still love her. If you also don't love her anymore, don't ever let her leave just to save your pride.
If you still love her, you should wish her happiness, and hope that she will be with the one she loves most, not stop her from it. If you stop her from finding true happiness with the one she loves, it shows you already don't love her. And if you don't love her, what rights do you have to blame her for a change of heart?
Love is not possessive. If you like the moon, you can 't just take it down and put it in your basin. But the moonlight still shines upon you. In other words, when you love a person, you can use another method of possessing the person. Let her become a permanent memory in your life.
If you really love a person, you must love her for what she is. Love her for her good points, and the bad. You can wish for her to become like what you like her to be just because you love her. If she can change to become what you like her to be, you don't love her anymore.
When you really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love her, you only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood, you will wish to have this person be with you.
Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criteria. In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times, not always be on the receiving end.
Being away from each other is a type of test. If the relationship isn't strong, then you can only admit defeat.
wow.
i'm tired from all the walking.
today's been a long day!
lets see.
i woke up early okay.
at like 6+?
to fetch my sister to school.
then i had to come back of course.
and abt 9+.headed back to pL for some small 6faith gathering.
pple said i've changed.
and i look prettier.
oops.:x
erm.came back home.and headed for town after that.
watched harry potter!
not that nice after all.
not as exciting.
heh.
harry potter's not yandao can.
went esplanade.
and i'm back home again.
nono.
we.
grins.
oh!wow woah whee.
lalala.rae is jumping.
whee.
mum dad and ryan are currently in hongkong now.
leaving me and my sister at home.
sister invited her frens to come watch eye2 wif her.
now she wants to sleep in my room tonight.
cos she's scared.
whahaha!
baby left now long ago.
:)
she's like here since afternoon!
woooow.
maybe we're going out tomorrow.
then she may be coming for a sleepover!
oh mans.
rae is jumping.rae is dancing.
whee!
i'm really looking forward to tomorrow mans.
but so sad.
i must be a good sister.
and bring my sister to school like 7+ reach there!
gosh.i must sacrifice my beauty sleep.
boos.:(
shall stop writing for now.
sheesh.
i'm on cloud 9.
hoho.
its the first of june.
dances-
9 long months have past.
lalalala.
had a talk wif rae just now.
she's damn cute.
the way she tries to put things across to me.
lalala.
i get everything now.
and i dont regret making that decision.
rae.as in me. is like super happy.
grins-
i'll go understand what's blow hot and cold.
and i'll finally tell rae that i understand.
i like rae.
seriously.she's damn cute.
hees.
its the first of this month!
jumps.dances.
oh whee.
and i'm not going to sleep yet.
too happy ta.
:DDDDDD
Rachel / Rae
24th nov 1989
raeraerae_@hotmail.com
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